In a sweet voice...

"OH you silly goose, you're the best thing that ever happened to me"

 That's all what i remember from all these years 

the moment when we first met , our song , her last name and..... almost her face 

I can't really say if i choose not to remember or have i really forgotten all about her  but how can i? i mean i loved her so much that i cherished every moment we spent together 

it all faded away like a winter's breeze......... you never see it coming but you feel how much it hurts you when it freezes your soul

i loved it when you made me feel special when you talked to me whenever you needed me 

or all those times when we sang together and you kept teasing me how bad was my voice

how you sang to me...... in a sweet voice 

  all the laughs and and tears we had together 

you don't know how hard it was to keep all my feelings kept away in a dark place underneath my cold skin

how your heart always ignites the deepest broken heart

how you make everything feels so right 

how you see this world in a different colorful way

where there are no hurricanes, no monsters underneath my bed, no darkness to fear, no clouds to block the sunshine from touching your face and no nightmares to keep me from dreaming  

with that insane look in your eyes how you love every thing in this life 

all of this made you sound so crazy 

but also so right

and thats why i loved you 

you made everything so beautiful and bright 

by the time i realized that all of this wasnt a dream............ you were gone 

you were still so young and beautiful 

oh how i wish all of this was a bad dream

i laughed one last time at the place where you died and i remembered 

"?when was ever life that fair to anyone" 

       i guess i never wanted to remember how beautiful it was to be with her 

im used to how dark it is here 

.....i guess i remember all of it after all